Change
One of my latest posts on my facebook was “It is SO hard to stand firm, when the weight of the world is on your shoulders…” while this is true, I think i wrote that in a context a christian should not have.
I was literally thinking of Isaiah 7:9b-If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all.
Let me explain, I recently lost my job and am floundering for money to pay rent and get food and obviously pay my other bills. This is probably the hardest time I have ever undergone, I know it is.
Not only was I fired, I feel I was not given the opportunity to explain myself, that is besides the point because things happen for a reason, we just need to seek that out.
Lately, I have been NOTHING in my spiritual walk with the Lord, just feeling sorry for myself and blaming God. I hate to admit it but I feel that i should because I was rash in my blame, rash in my anger.
God has really been putting the pressure on me, not in a bad way, just so I have no where to turn except to Him, it kind of sucks that it came to that, but a good thing that He cares so much to do what He has been.
When I talk to people I am so down and just feeling sorry for myself and want the pity as well, things are changing now.
I had to pray hard, I cannot live like this because I know that God has a plan for my life, and what am I going to sit back and let that pass because I got fired? NO!!! I am going to suck it up, chalk it on my experience board and find what God has for me.
God is more than fair with us, and I really wanted to write this to show that no matter what happens in our lives, good or bad, it needs to be given to God. Especially when things go worse than normal, give it to God and realize that God IS in control, no matter what.
I am sad that it took me this long to realize it, but am so happy that I am learning this, and definitely something I can use in the future to help others in hard times and dark times.
This is a storm for me, storms pass and blue skies are beautiful. God is gracious and just. Draw near to Him and He will draw nearer to you. It is time I realize that and do it!!!
Thank you Lord for your never changing character, love, and grace! How can we live life without the one who created and sustains us?? I know I cannot and I am seeking Him now!!
